today the latte was worth it.

so...i'm back into the charting calories thing...but trying not to be so obsessive about the numbers on the scale...at least weighing myself less. before it got a little rediculous. I have to say for me i am an all or nothing type of person. I either totally aviod the scale and eat like crap, or totally follow a complete healthy diet and weigh myself everyday ...maybe twice a day. This time around i am going to involve measurements....because I now realize that the number on the scale may not always change...and I am going to need something else to keep me going. I feel better, much better actually. I hate relying on things...i've come to realize this...it is like an act of God for me to ask for help. really. but i'm getting better about that too. The thing that i'm bringing into this that I have never brought with me is God, I am very aware that I can NOT do this on my own. so any prayer you can offer up is much appreciated. :)
i am also involving any ideas anyone has to offer...we gotta help eachother out right?? right!.
i am also taking pictures...i'm a very visual person. so each week I can see how my body is changing on the outside as well as the inside. this is not just a outward issue...its physical, emotional, spirtual...all of it.

today i opted out of breakfast...went for coffee instead. it was a carmel latte and totally worth missing out on breakfast. i have been freakin tired lately and stressed out and i am trying to not have that effect my diet. "trying" being the key word. this is a day by day challenge...and who ever reads this....i hope it serves as a guide. or an example that yea we may fall...but its not about falling its about getting back up.

this is also week 3 without pop. like any addiction there comes times where i want it really bad...but like i said i'm all or nothing...and right now it needs to be nothing, because i will binge on it.

so thats enough for now...i will try to keep up on this.

i want to end with....whats your struggle?? what are you battling today?? and how can i be praying for you??

with love,

Jenny