Day One

Hey there...So today marks day one of jumping back on this weight loss wagon. It's been a bumpy ride that last few months...I basically just took some time off. I am coming back to this in a different way. I've decided to keep updated on a blog in a way to keep myself accountable. its makes it a little harder to slip when you have to type out your failures. I will also keep the actual numbers of my weight on here...now thats basically a cardinal rule for women...i'm going to share my actual weight...AHHH. okay calm down folks. lol.
I started this journey originally 8 mo or so ago. My official beginning weight was 275lbs at a short 5'2''
how i got to that i can't tell you. the weight kept slowly but surely catching up to me. I started "packing" on the pounds when I turned 15 or so. and slowly but surely more and more. I had the reversed self image problems for the longest time I had family members telling me to lose weight...but i didn't think i needed to. I thought i was fine the way i was. truth is weight becomes a very easy thing to hide behind. it's also something that causes alot of self harm. you get judged everywhere for it...i mean as far as i know everyone has had an opinion on my weight and what i need to do about it. which only makes you want to run as if you are on fire...lol. its makes you want to rebel.
Fact is i'm 23 years old and i'm tired. I am tired of shopping in the "plus" sizes. I am tired of food making me happy. I'm SO tired of not having options due to my size and thinking WAY to much about how i am percieved...simply i am just too tired. plus i'm healthy now...but lets fast forward 10 years...i don't know that i will be that lucky. and i do have age on my side.
I used to do dance, i love dance and i want to get back to it so much. and i think once i get this accomplished i can. I also want to run in a 5k or whatever. go rock climbling...all kinds of things that i feel my weight hinders.

So anywho...i hope this blog serves you as well as it does me. my name is jenny by the way. :)

here are the cold hard crappy facts :
Height: 5 ft 2 (which means i have to lose alot more b/c im vertically challenged...HAHA)

Starting Weight: ... 251 (i loathe that number...but good news its going to go down.)

measurements...i will update that sometime this week...i don't have the tape with me.

i have drank SO much water today...and i am flippin hungry but its after 8 and i am NOT adding on anymore calories to today...oh yea i got a new scale too...kinda excited.

goodnight friends

Jenny